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Matt and I had a very loving relationship sometimes we argued but that was life we were two very stubborn people but when I looked into his eyes I knew he was my soul mate stubbornness an all. To be quite honest I never knew what true love was until I started dating Matt. There was just something about him that made me forget all my worries, made me smile when ever I thought of him and anytime I saw him my stomach did flip flops, flip flops I tell ya like I was some middle school girl crushing on the neighborhood boy, but this my friends was the real deal. When I kissed Matt it seriously felt like time had stopped and just for those minutes we were the only ones on earth and that was okay.

Matt was okay with my flaws and I was content with his, when we first started dating out work schedules made it a little hard for us to be with each other sometimes we spent our time together just laying next to each other for the first time I didn't need to be doing anything to feel like I was having a good time just being with Matt was enough. I remember our first date Matt took me to see a scary movie in hopes that I'd cuddle up scared next to him little did he know I was a horror movie fanatic and he was the one cuddling up to me. That's what I liked about Matt the simple fact that he could be himself around me he didn't need to pretend to be this macho man he could easily sit there and admit that the movie was a little freaky. I remember how easily we fit together like our hands were made for each other his hand was made to go with my hand and mine with his. Matt was different then most men that I knew I don’t know if it's because he was taught how to love or what but he had an amazing soul.

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Hello my name is Ricci I am a mom of three incredible children their dad my late husband Matt is the reason I am writing this I don't know how many eyes this will actually reach or if anyone will even read this and that's okay I needed to do this for myself. Lately I have had so many thoughts swimming through my head it's like a ocean in their it feels like someone jammed a whole bunch of memories and thoughts in my head and their all trying to reach the top before the other one. So I am doing what my husband did best and seemed to help him and that is write.

I first want to apologize if you're reading this and I jump all over the place like I said I have memories and thoughts fighting to get out and sometimes they don't always come out an order. The first time I laid eyes on Matt I knew he was mine lol, no really he used to work at this gas station and I made my family go there and every time I saw him I would be like that's my future husband he just doesn't know it yet. Matt and I actually had a lot of mutual friends but we never hung out with them at the same time. We officially met when Matt accidentally texted my phone at tree in morning I might add asking if his friend Darryl was there I told him that no, and this wasn't Tiffany's number another mutual friend of ours and instead of just leaving it at that him and I texted basically all day until his phone was about to die. We made plans to meet up that night at a mutual friends place. Matt and I met March, 9^th 2006 and had our first little date March 11^th 2006. At first I was hesitant on doing anything after that I didn't know if I had wanted a relationship I wanted this relationship to be a solid one Matt won my heart by telling me he didn't mind waiting because I was worth waiting for, we made it official quickly after that :-).